1. |
Prospectus
03:41
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(Intro)
Life The Show, Part 3
You know, I've been thinking a lot lately
I didn't even want to make this album
But sometimes, we gotta do things we weren't ready to do
(Intro - Dave Chappelle)
If you look at life, anything in life, through the framework of money, you'll miss most of the picture
(Verse 1)
I don’t really have a presence to be writing rhymes
I’ve been feeling under pressure, going out my mind
I told myself everything would be fine
It’s sad, all I wanted was a ceasefire
Take a moment, give me a couple breaths
You wouldn’t let up, I couldn’t defense
Two months later want your head across my chest
It’s too late for that, it just doesn’t make sense
I guess, this life, gets really fucked up, sometimes
Honestly, I’m sorry that you’re hurting
Both hurt each other, so we gotta close curtains
And I’m sorry bout the pain spilling out of these verses
And all of those things that we couldn’t get working
But the worst is…ahh, man, fuck it ain’t worth it
(Chorus)
I’ve been working on my prospectus
Lately, my perspective has been feeling neglected
Sold that ring, never bought that necklace
Next thing is to mark it off my checklist
Here, please take this prospectus
I hope you don’t reject it
(Verse 2)
Truth is, it was write this rhyme or kill myself
But I’ll always write instead of kill myself
And my therapy is writing this until I’m helped
I hope your therapy really helps
But I gotta write this about myself
Look into the mirror and wonder what I really felt
Could I talk about the demons, and really tell
How I was broken down, crying out for help
Lost my whole value, hated myself
Tried to reach out, I couldn’t get help
Spiral down through every circle of hell
Imprisoned in my own virtual jail
Then my decision is to post my own bail
Set a new ship as I hoisted my sail
Look into myself, know I will prevail
And I’ll get back up next time I fail
(Chorus)
I’ve been working on my prospectus
Lately, my perspective has been feeling neglected
Sold that ring, never bought that necklace
Next thing is to mark it off my checklist
Here, please take this prospectus
I hope you don’t reject it
(Verse 3)
Do I still prioritize my perspective?
Look in the mirror and damn my reflection
Shows a kid way beyond adolescent
Who wants to travel to the very beginning
Shit, but we can’t do that T
I don’t wanna go back for the old me
He died somewhere in the cold streets
About a year after we lost Kobe
I got LOST and didn’t even get a nosebleed
I know me, but I don’t wanna speak
About the depths of my soul or the shoes on my feet
As I walk to the cliff and just hope it’s a peak
If I can’t live through regret and defeat
Learn to let go, achieve victory
Enough about you and enough about me
So it goes, we proceed
(Chorus)
I’ve been working on my prospectus
Lately, my perspective has been feeling neglected
Sold that ring, never bought that necklace
Next thing is to mark it off my checklist
Here, please take this prospectus
I hope you don’t reject it
(Outro - Dave Chappelle)
Well, I mean, you know, the bottom line is no matter what happens to you, you gotta keep going.
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2. |
Regrets
03:41
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(Intro - Dave Chappelle)
You gotta keep going
Bitterness is quite cumbersome
You gotta keep going
(Verse 1)
I’ve been feeling bitter and taking pictures
Gotta update this dating prof
Most days, I’m aloof, on the couch, just like a loaf
Hope I’m not going to stale, fuck outta here, with your burnt toast
Go check the mail, Left the toaster on, returned to burnt smoke
Go coast to coast, think I saw a ghost
But we get to that in the later portions
My love has become an orphan
A new girl might increase endorphins
Because of you I’m mighty morphin
Power Ranger with endangered fortunes
Is that a bird, a plane, or is it Dexter Morgan
I think you killed me, gorgeous
I don’t think you really wanna talk about it now,
I’ve been floating in the clouds, can’t find the solid ground
Maybe I’m allowed to expose all of our secrets, cause I don’t really know why you fraternized with demons
When I told you I was leaving, sitting on the couch that evening
So I left out there, start working on my healing
You want a chance to fix it, but I can’t find the reasons
And, all I wanna know, is what possessed you, to be so demeaning
(Chorus) (2x)
I just try to minimize regrets, I don’t know if I got there yet
(Verse 2)
Welcome to my class, on regret minimization
Take it back to the days, when I was making minimum wage in
Them simple times, before spitting rhymes
My outlet, was to get in the car and drive
Lately, I’ve done a lot of both
I’m sorry about all these songs I wrote
But that’s the only way that I can close the hole
Some verses sting, hope they don’t provoke
You to find a reason to pick up the phone, please let me go
I know, I was your steady stone
You were as stable as when confetti’s blown
At Ramsey’s Glen, they built a lovely home
I might go tear it down, at night, alone
I don’t know what’s deep in my soul
As I take a look through this kaleidoscope
I see that apartment running low on hope
As I sat in that chair always feeling pretty broke
Take this as my hopeful note
No regrets, no smoke
All truth, no jokes
I loved you, now I don’t
Good luck on that lonely road
As you’re heading home, just remember
I’m the greatest that you’ve ever known
(Chorus) (2x)
I just try to minimize regrets, I don’t know if I got there yet
(Verse 3)
No regrets, no regrets
I made changes, got no respect
I improved dramatically, on everything that you were asking me
What a catastrophe, thought we had a masterpiece
Was your master plan, to ride and saddle me
Make me hide, die inside, and resort to apathy
Of course, you manipulated, straight gaslighted
But there’s a gas shortage, as I’m writing
No longer allow myself, to get ignited
honestly, I hope you’re alright
No this isn’t, see you later, this is goodnight
(Chorus) (3x)
And I've been trying to minimize all of my regrets, did I get there yet?
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3. |
Apartments
03:36
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(Verse 1)
We all living apartments with temporary options,
Never clean the carpets, or pick up all your garments
Living with these animals, I promise that they're harmless
Get yourself the best you can afford,
Life is just a day and then we end up in the morgue
I’m looking for the way, but I said it all before
And life is just a maze, keep your head up from the floor
What’s behind the door? It’s probably nobody
Navigating hallways to us becomes a hobby
And if you get lucky, there’s a guest down in the lobby
Better get him soon or he’ll end up like a zombie
I ain’t really okay with the view
But I catch myself looking out the window
Colors don’t change with the hue
I guess we just leave it all in limbo
(Bridge)
Living in apartments, living in apartments
Just a starving artist, trying to hit the target
Battling the hardships over a guitar riff
(Verse 2)
We all living in apartments
Just a starving artist, trying to hit the target
Battling the hardships over a guitar riff
Don’t know how we mark it if life’s a seller’s market
Stakes raising higher than apartments down in Charlotte
Am I still myself or just an incarnate?
Overcome your salary, go defy your gravity
What if the end, it’s simply a catastrophe?
Would you design the masterpiece, without it ending tragically
No need for vanity, avoiding all the pageantry
Know I write sporadically, my type of modality
I’m affably abnormal in all actuality
Don’t mean to be dramatic as we enter to finality
But what if my last line, could not avoid catastrophe
(Bridge)
Living in apartments, living in apartments
Keep the lights on, to avoid the darkness
Even if your sky, seems a little starless
(Verse 3)
We all living in apartments
Keep the lights on, to avoid the darkness
Even if your sky, seems a little starless
If I tell a lie, it’s just my catharsis
If you come to visit, you won’t know where to park it
But you should come to visit, regardless
This the life we living, no need for inquisition
If I’m reaching intermission and you’re sick of repetition
Know we’ve all been preconditioned, to exalt at recognition
It’s not your fault, your mind is slipping
You’re just caught up in attrition
Go restore my vision, ignore all your contrition
Adore your disposition, speak like a politician
Of my own volition
I’m converting y’all, to my new religion
It’s apartment demolition followed by an expedition
Nothing’s permanent, so you better start living
(Bridge)
Living in apartments, living in apartments
To avoid the darkness, just a starving artist
Living in apartments
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4. |
Kaleidoscope
03:04
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(Chorus)
And every day we just look through our kaleidoscopes
try to see a different view, it’s blurry but I wouldn’t know
(Verse 1)
I’m damn near 30, and I done seen some things
But I’ve been sitting, trying to figure what it means
Am I human? Or am I simply trying to be?
Nobody could tell the truth if you’re in front of me
We got our reasons, that’s something I would say
But I’m trying to grow and elaborate
Get to the details, why I wrote this
It’s out of order, because I couldn’t focus
(Chorus) (4x)
And every day we just look through our kaleidoscopes
try to see a different view, it’s blurry but I wouldn’t know
(Verse 2)
Most days, we get caught up in the details
Have a rough thought and you know we won’t sleep well
Phone buzz, but it’s just another email
Another company, begging for your retail
I could go and paint a picture of the negative
But just think it’s the opposite of everything you’re savoring
So when you take a shot, know you gotta play to win
Too deep in the pool, it seems we gotta swim
(Chorus) (4x)
And every day we just look through our kaleidoscopes
try to see a different view, it’s blurry but I wouldn’t know
(Verse 3)
Reflective focus, and I can’t seem to follow
Wondering who wrote this, could he see tomorrow?
If you need a dollar, got a few to borrow
I’m just trying to find out how we can escape the sorrow
Spending all your time caught up on a weakness
Don’t look down when you wonder where the peak is
Let it all out, this ain’t a place for secrets
Look through this kaleidoscope, and just describe the sequence
(Outro)
But I wouldn’t know
Blurry, but I wouldn’t know
Look through our kaleidoscopes
Blurry but I wouldn’t know
And every day we just look through our kaleidoscopes
try to see a different view, it’s blurry but I wouldn’t know
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(Verse 1)
I've been riding too high off other people’s approval
And they’re telling too many lies, don’t have enough time to Google
What do you know? What do you know?
I’m tired of being asked so many questions
I told y’all that I’ve been guessing
And the next time, learn my lesson
With these women, its obsession
And a crashing wave that’s deadly
She knows, how to get to me fast
It won’t last
A little bit of good connection, then I’m wifed up, misdirection
I still need my own protection
My heart spills out these records
And I don’t have time to check ‘em
So, the honest truth is spilling out
Look into my eyes, know it’s real now
I’ve been climbing up, getting knocked back down
Get over you if I have to date the whole town
But that doesn’t help me to move on
So I lace up, put my shoes on,
Pack my bags, find a new home
Check-in and find out who’s gone
(Chorus)
Look into my eyes, I got all these things I’ll find
I got one too many feelings, that I’m feeling deep inside
I just try to sort it out, don’t know what you talking bout
I’m just wasting every day, with another chick laying on my couch
I don’t know just where I’m going, but I’m broken falling down again
Try to fill the void of you with a whole bunch of fucking women
And I, I know, I know, probably shouldn’t say that on this mic
Cuz this shit will come back to me with the next girl that I like
(Verse 2)
I’ve been putting too much weight into the women that don’t swipe right
Or the ones who send a few texts back, and then move on with their life
Sometimes I do it, it ain’t right
But you know the feeling, doesn’t change when you’re all alone at night
I’ll be honest, it has crossed my mind, from time to time
Are you laying down with someone else tonight?
Are you doing all the things to him? Knowing that’s what I liked
Or are you still struggling so much, that you haven’t moved on with your life
it’s okay, it’s alright, I’m still struggling, so that’s why I grabbed this mic
Don’t know if spitting these words is wrong or if it's right
So the wrong memories, keep coming back every single night
I’ve been feeling underground, I’ve been living out of sight
They told me pick myself back up and get back to living life
(Chorus)
Look into my eyes, I got all these things I’ll find
I got one too many feelings, that I’m feeling deep inside
I just try to sort it out, don’t know what you talking bout
I’m just wasting every day, with another chick laying on my couch
I don’t know just where I’m going, but I’m broken falling down again
Try to fill the void of you with a whole bunch of fucking women
And I, I know, I know, probably shouldn’t say that on this mic
Cuz this shit will come back to me with the next girl that I like
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6. |
I Need to Hate You
03:12
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(Chorus)
I really think I need to hate you, but I hope you’re doing alright
I really need to hate you, but I hope you're doing alright
(Verse 1)
I guess I’m not to good at holding grudges
What’s the subject of this love, that we’ve been discussing
I can’t think of nothing, I’ve erased all of the past
Feel like I received concussions, symptoms coming fast
I removed all of your good, tossed it in the trash
Think back to the days, when I thought it’d Everlast
But I guess, that’s just what it’s like
So remember that I didn’t write this out of spite
(Chorus 2)
I really need to hate you, but I hope you're doing alright
And I've been too late, for way too many fucking nights
I really need to hate you, but I hope you're doing alright
And I just need you to go away, so I can move on with my life
I really think I need to hate you, but I hope you're doing alright
I think I need to hate you, I hope you're alright
(Verse 2)
I can easily find reasons to hate
But I’ll keep them to myself and off of this tape
I did everything I could, but I couldn’t be great
The bar kept rising, my car kept driving
Thought about driving it straight into the lake
I should’ve done this whole track in one take
Needed to make a few refinements
Don't worry, I’m still trying to figure out my mindset
(Chorus 3)
Oh, I really think I need to hate you, I hope you're alright
Yeah, I really think I need to hate you, but it isn't out of spite
Oh, I really need to fucking hate you, I hope you're alright
Yeah, I really need to fucking hate you, that's just lfie
(Verse 3)
Now it seems I can finally move on
After I processed everything that I could do wrong
Let it digest, and put it in a few songs
I tried to tell the whole truth, all along
But I digress, try to find what’s next
I hope you can process and get it off your chest
Therapy should help, you can better cope with losses
When I think back, I just get so exhausted
I simply begged for understanding
A little dose of compassion
I couldn’t get that, so now it’s time to take action
(Chorus) (2x)
I really need to hate you, but I hope you’re alright
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7. |
West Coast
02:43
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(Chorus)
I’m heading to the West Coast
Trying to outrun these ghosts
But you’re still on my mind
I look into the ocean
I've been feeling broken
(Verse 1)
Road tripping all the way to the coast
I just need to get away from it all
I’m tempted to get on a boat
And end up in Rome or Nepal
But that would be a little too much
Anyway, LA’s been calling my name
So I think I’ll load the car up now, it’s time for me to get away, soo
(Chorus)
I’m heading to the West Coast
Trying to outrun these ghosts
You're still on my mind
I look into the ocean
I don’t know where I’m going
But I know that I’ll be fine
I’m heading to the West Coast
Trying outrun these ghosts
You're still on my mind
I look into the ocean
I've been feeling broken
So tell me what will I find
(Verse 2)
Lately it seems to me, like the days keep tick, tick, ticking on by
And it just occurred to me, that I finally figured out why
I’ve been counting every minute and I’m trying to forget it
But no memories to replace
I guess that’s the danger of, me staying in one place, soo
(Chorus)
I’m heading to the West Coast
Trying to outrun these ghosts
You're still on my mind
I look into the ocean
I don’t know where I’m going
But I know that I’ll be fine
I’m heading to the West Coast
Trying outrun these ghosts
You're still on my mind
I look into the ocean
I've been feeling broken
So tell me what will I find
(Bridge)
I'm heading to the West Coast
Trying to outrun these ghosts
You're still on my mind
I look into the ocean
I don't know where I'm going
I know that I'll be fine
(Chorus)
I’m heading to the West Coast
Trying to outrun these ghosts, oh my
I look into the ocean
Don’t know where I’m going
But I know that I’ll be fine
I’m heading to the West Coast
Trying outrun these ghosts and got you off my mind
I look into the ocean, I’m feeling awoken
So I know it just took time
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8. |
Flight Risk
04:19
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(Verse 1)
Oh, it’s 3 am and you must be lonely all the time
But not tonight because I'm lying by your side
Explored your body for an hour, I think we just got done
Making love, or having sex, or maybe we just fucked, I guess
I don’t really know what meaning or reason or verbiage you would pick
But I think I liked it, yeah, I liked it
I left around 7 in the next morning, got home, and sent you a couple texts
But I noticed soon, you didn’t want what I wanted next
I didn’t need to move too fast
Or call us anything
(Bridge)
More than us, and more than this
Sometimes we fuck, sometimes we kiss
You are you and you exist
(Chorus)
But oh you’re such a fucking flight risk
Yeah, you're quite the flight risk
You run away when times are tough
I don’t know that anything will ever be enough
Because if you felt what I was feeling
(Bridge)
More than us, and more than this
Sometimes we fuck, sometimes we kiss
You are you and you exist
(Chorus)
But oh you’re such a fucking flight risk
You're quite the flight risk
You run away when times are tough
I don’t know that anything will ever be enough
Because if you felt what I was feeling
(Bridge)
More than us, and more than this
Sometimes we love, sometimes we miss
You are you and you exist
(Chorus)
But oh you’re such a fucking flight risk
Such a fucking flight risk, ohhh
You run away when times are tough
I don’t know that anything will ever be enough
Because if you felt what I was feeling
You would fight for it
The crazy thought is that you did
And fought against it
(Bridge)
More than us, and more than this
Sometimes, sometimes
(Chorus)
You’re such a flight risk, such a flight risk
I don’t even why I’m surprised
You should’ve known that I fly away
You fly away when times are tough
Oh you’re such a lovely, stupid, often amusing, fucking abuse me, such a flight risk
(Outro)
Run away, fly away, goodbye
Such a flight risk
All that time on planes taught you something
Never stay on the ground in one spot too long
Your personality fits perfectly with abandonment
Tied to nothing but the wings you use to escape
The signs should've been so clear
Your necklace, earrings, and job all told me you'd fly away
I guess I didn't notice you're a flight risk
This way too easy and so was your ability to run
I'd rather crash the plane trying to make it work
As soon as the itinerary wasn't too your liking, you were gone
Should've seen how obvious it all was
I was heading to a destination and you were barely there for a layover
I won't put my tray table up and my seat in the upright position
Sad little flight attendant
(Flight Attendant)
Ladies and gentlemen, may I have your attention, please
As we go through the following safety instructions
In the event that there is a loss of cabin pressure, oxygen masks will drop from the overhead
Place the mask over your nose and mouth, breathe normally as oxygen is flowing, even if the mask is not inflating
Be sure to adjust your own mask before helping others
In the event of a water landing
(Plane takeoff noise)
Make sure all seats are in the upright position and tray tables put away
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9. |
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(Intro - Dave Chappelle)
I like to live a more open life, I don't like to have to protect myself from people
I don't want my life to become about enforcing boundaries
You know, but that's what happens when you become successful
Your humanity diminishes and you become something else to people
(Verse 1)
Minds a vault, and I forgot the combination
My default is to avoid the conversation
Get annoyed every time they bring a task up
Because I’m too concerned with reminiscing on the past stuff
Lately, it seems my views a bit trapped now
Breaking thoughts down, refuse to adapt how
Attempts to capture, where my head is
Imagine a box, locked with no exits
It’s likely, you’ve been down here before
In the land of the lost, stuck to the floor
Balancing costs with consumption's reward
How presumptuous, you recommend I explore
This discussion is something I’ll probably ignore
Gotta find myself in a fog of the unsure
Is it all a construct of my own mind?
Don’t worry bout me, I’m fine
(Chorus)
Thoughts from the Corolla, rolling, rolling (3x)
Thoughts
(Verse 2)
Hit the gas, go cruising through a red light
Turn the wheel, driving in the dead of night
Only point of interest is achieving clarity
Gotta fill my tank up, I’m feeling like I’m barely me
I’m aware the speeds I’m driving are illegal
But I’m deeper in my thoughts, than I really care to be though
Did this drive for years, with nowhere to be though
Talking to myself, try to make the speed slow
Hit the brakes on life, gain awareness of the complication
Blatant conversations as I’m traveling locations
Bring me, myself, and I back to an earth of my creation
I share with you, my thoughts, avoiding declarations
(Chorus)
Thoughts from the Corolla, rolling, rolling (3x)
Thoughts
(Verse 3)
Had that car, from 16 to 22
Spend some time thinking back to that younger dude
And I wonder how his fucking hunger grew
Balancing my crazy nights with many passing headlights
Music blasting loud and my mind feeling Zen like
Am I alright? Yeah I’m alright
Thankful every day that was my first car
Started life in it and watched it take me very far
So it’s with a heavy heart, reflecting on that guiding star
Deriving all these heady bars and building on my repertoire
Launching my confetti far, celebrating what we are
Who are you? Where you been? I just went out for a spin
Now I’m back but the track’s unfinished
Did enough laps, so the words stack in it
Almost collapsed, when the world crashed in it
But it didn’t, but it didn’t
(Chorus)
Thoughts from the Corolla, rolling, rolling (3x)
Thoughts
(Verse 4)
So many soundtracks amplified those speakers
From Tip and Drake to Creed and 3 Doors
And plenty of tracks made by Tim Durr
Driving in that car was everything I lived for
Grab a few friends and cruise into the nighttime
Cleared our thoughts and got into the right mind
Set, yes I did, drive around then just me and Sliz
Then near the end it was Kyle and Mec
And I say this next line with no disrespect
Leave me alone when I’m reminiscing
Cruise in the Corolla, damn I miss it
Thoughts
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10. |
Meditating
03:52
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(Intro)
I’ve been sitting here too long, worried about the reasons why I write these songs
I’ve been staying out too late and you should see that look up on my face
(Verse 1)
Confusion or maybe worse
I can’t find the words to try to converse
Sit back, I’m thinking how to spin verbs
Hate pronouns, never know to pronounce
A proclamation of profit faces, a prophet wages
Warring nations, abhorred abrasions
I’m bored, get naked, a voyeur painting
Of fornicating, forlorn engagements, warrant abating
Get crazy with Warren Beatty, so fucking pay me
Maybe I’m just lazy with Jay-Z,
Come into the club and sugar-coated DaBaby
Singer took his mask off, it’s only Wayne Brady
If we Chappelling around, I’m gonna need Dave to save me
Put your clothes on as I’m hanging this painting
Turn on the news to see which nation was taken
Profit don’t cost when the prophet is praying
I got my thoughts out, and this is me meditating
(Chorus)
I’ve been sitting here too long, worried about the reasons why I write these songs
I’ve been staying out too late and you should see that look up on my face
Who really knows what you need today?
Sometimes I want to fade away
Don’t let me fade away
I’ve just been in deep thoughts, I'm steady walking on the treetops
Always hoping that the grief stops, but lately, I think I seem lost
(Verse 2)
Can’t say I know you’ll find me, but I got a verse, a hook, and the rhyme scheme
Rap support with the drip of this IV, looking for myself as I stare at my ID
Thoughts in my head surpass surprising, I’d be lying if that surprised me
Hoping that’ll leave all you cats surmising
As I tie these rhymes while the facts are hiding
Disguised in the form of soliloquy
Wonder out to the crowd, is this really me?
No reply, so I cry, what a silly dream
In pursuit of the truth as a human being
No answers, that don’t mean a fucking thing
As you, from the view of the community
You excelled and failed at damn near everything
Getting judged, while you comprise all your dreams
(Chorus)
I’ve been sitting here too long, worried about the reasons why I write these songs
I’ve been staying out too late and you should see that look up on my face
Who really knows what you need today?
Sometimes I want to fade away
Don’t let me fade away
I’ve just been in deep thoughts, I'm steady walking on the treetops
Always hoping that the grief stops, but lately, I think I seem lost
(Verse 3)
Here’s the verse where the song’s aligning
Or maybe you skipped tracks, and I’m outta my mind, see
Talking to no one, is probably a problem
I’m just being honest, when I say that I got ‘em
Lately, it don’t seem like reality stacks up
Because I’m rapping this verse from the back of my dad’s truck
He heads to outer space through the way of the black stuff
As we’re passing stars, man, I think I need backup
Wait, I should scratch that line out
Or take this whole song and rewrite some lines now
That’s what I said and the words that I wrote down
What else could I say when I don’t know how
I’m searching all the thoughts up in my attic
Try to get them through the door, into the paddock
Gotta stay at it, try to make it through the ether
Thoughts spill out when I match ‘em to the meter
(Outro)
I’ve been sitting here too long, worried about the reasons why I write these songs
I’ve been staying out too late and you should see that look up on my face
Who really knows what you need today?
Sometimes I want to fade away
Don’t let me fade away…
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11. |
Vices (Feat. Mecca)
02:47
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(Intro)
I've been turning back to vices, and I'm feeling indecisive
I've been turning (3x)
(Verse 1)
I've been turning back to vices and feeling decisive
Burning the candle at both ends, don't matter what the price is
My wick just gets ignited
Stay up late at night, it's
A parody, because my clarity, no longer feels error-free
I'm barely me, but I'm getting back and the terror leaves when I spit the track
I'm no aware of needs and how I react
So the growths coming, yeah I'm counting stacks
Not the money, I'm just counting facts
Stack it up, all the amounts intact
Then a count for accounts, don't account for that
Try to overcome all the things I lack
But the growths here, overcome and might've cried tears
Open up, it's no surprise dear
That I fight fear and I stand tall
Even when all those plans fall
And you walk around singing this damn song
Wondering if you should call, I won't answer that
Don't be surprised at all
(Chorus)
I've been turning back to vices, I'm still feeling indecisive
Why you up so late at night with, all your drama, all your moods
All that pain, all that truth
(Verse 2 - Mecca)
Parliament cigarettes, vodka tonics, IPAs
Used to feel like that was medicine, but I'd end up sick for days
It used to validate my choices and make my girlfriend less annoyin'
And then I started hearing demons talk in these little, quiet voices!
Ahh, but you were never supposed to know this
I mean, I'm not the one who wrote this
I've been swimming in my thoughts so long I'll end up like a goldfish
In a house made of glass, I can't outrun my past
Know I got burned from it, but I learned from it and that knowledge gonna last
Ok, that shit's a lie
I smoked tonight, too drunk to drive
In the mirror - "who the fuck am I?!"
I swear I quit like a hundred times!
Turnin' back to vices, cause I kinda sorta like it
If you ask my friend Bryce, he'll say, "that's just the way they slice it", yuh
(Chorus)
I've been turning back to vices, I'm still feeling indecisive
Why you up so late at night with, all your drama, all your moods
All that pain, all that truth
(Verse 3)
I might go and try some ayahuasca
Heard Neal Brennan say, it made his life prosper
Now he’s my doctor
Taking medical advice from podcasts
Sorry, mom, I said don’t ask
It’s better than, taking 20 Excedrin
It makes a headache, gone fast
Ahh just forget, this is simple stuff
Ain’t even hit my limit
What’s this life, if you’re afraid to live it
What’s the limit, if it isn’t, triple digits
Maybe too religious, or it’s sacrilegious
That’s just existence until the track is finished
But wait, it isn’t done yet
Let’s watch the sunset
Wealth over money, she never understood why
Don’t need a million in my savings, I'm a good guy
And some days, I feel like I should die
Music is a drug that’ll keep me on the good side
(Chorus)
I've been turning back to vices, I'm still feeling indecisive
Why you up so late at night with, all your drama, all your moods
All that pain, all that truth
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12. |
Asleep for Weeks
03:46
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(Verse 1)
I’ve been down here so long, lowest of the lows
So I made this song, no one at my home
Nowhere to go, don’t answer the phone when I make this song
You could try to sing along, or leave me all alone
We both know you can’t right your wrongs
So I write this song, forget it, reversed
Revisit, it hurts
I’m sorry if the worst hasn’t came yet
Go back in time, before we became that
I don’t know what to say, and I hate that
Asking you to pick a letter, Pat Sajak
Board empty, ain’t no vowels
I left, started sleeping in hotels
I don’t know what I don’t know now
Move forward, said you don’t know how
So I guess I gotta rewind time and go back to 18
Before you arrived, before you changed my life
And then made it die, I hate these feelings
At night I cry, but I rewind time and don’t remember why
Try to see new heights, my new attempt to fly
I hope my selective amnesia, nah, it won't subside
(Chorus)
I’ve been falling asleep for weeks
With all these thoughts in my fucking head
I suppose if I was cut I’d bleed
But I wouldn’t bet against it
(Verse 2)
Trip to vegas, won’t turn me to a betting me
Another album, I’m such a veteran
But it never feels better than, when I’m on the mic
Dissecting all of these skeletons
Autopsy, report
Final verdict, skipped that day in court
Hear you retort, that we lost rapport
I moved on, didn’t want another war
Honestly, my troops are exhausted
Those boots, that are made for walking
Will likely lead me, straight to a coffin
Your hands committed manslaughter
Never been treated that way, by no man’s daughter
What’s the bother, I’m the author
Not a prophet or a father
Oh my god, these thoughts are awful
(Chorus)
I’ve been falling asleep for weeks
With all these thoughts in my fucking head
I suppose if I was cut I’d bleed
But I wouldn’t bet against it
But I wouldn't bet against,
I wouldn't bet against it, no
No I wouldn't bet against it
Wouldn't bet against it
I, I wouldn't bet against it
I've been falling asleep for weeks
With all these thoughts in my fucking head
I suppose if I was cut I’d bleed
But I wouldn’t bet against it
(Verse 3)
I've been thinking that the truth of the matter is
We fall down but we can’t ever shatter, kids
This is. My life. Part 3. That’s right
But it’s really, about part 95, because every couple months that I’ve been alive
I change, I grow, people leave, I don’t know
That’s why you gotta fill it with a few new
And stay true to the ones who always stay true
They’ll be there until you’re in the grave dude
And even on that day, they’ll come and pay dues
Just leave the past in the past
Things pass on, it’s okay, we never last
As I said on part 2, chapter over, next move
(Chorus)
I’ve been falling asleep for weeks
With all these thoughts in my fucking head
I suppose if I was cut I’d bleed
But I wouldn’t bet against it
(Outro - Dave Chappelle)
I mean, you know, you know the bottom line is no matter what happens to you, you've gotta keep going
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